October 23rd, 1996 was a day I’ll never forget, it was a day that my family and friends will never forget, it was just another day to me when my alarm clock woke me that morning. I reluctantly got out of bed and looked outside and as usual, the weather was lousy, dark and pouring down rain. I quickly ran to the kitchen and grabbed a cup of coffee to wake up. I felt a little depressed that ...

It was a day to remember. We’ve just arrived in Chicago. It was raining and my first impression was that there was something in the air. “Even the air is different here” – I said to Gaga, my friend which came with me in the States. “I noticed. And I really hope that I can smoke a cigarette here.” – She said while taking the cigarettes out of her pocket. I made a small note that...

I remember that night well. The night that I first thought about doing what I ended up doing, what I’m going to tell to you now. I remember I had a headache and was in that state of being where you aren’t quite tired, but you’re almost apathetic to doing anything. I suppose lethargic would be the best fitting word, but I’m not sure that encompasses the feeling in its entirety. ...

Many nights I wonder how things have happened before between us. You started to come and talked to me along with a friend. The time we had together, I thought we would be close friends. We talked online, but the moment you seemed to stop asking questions and gave out short answers, I was not sure how the conversation should be continued. Sometimes after church, you poked me from behind and ga...